well. i was going thru the chat logs between the two of us. naturally i thought of you. and suddenly i was washed over by a wave of emotions. not that i'm still in love with you, just..you know..emotions.

without a doubt you were the one that loved me most. you cared for me, more than anyone i've met before. you made me feel important, you made me feel loved. unfortunately, after i met you, i met Her. so things never did work out between us. but you still loved me, and when i was at my lowest, you were there. i admit. i did play with your feelings a bit. but that was cos i was equally confused. when you left for america, part of me wanted to tell you to stay. but part of me told me it was impossible. cos that part of me told me this is real life. not channel 8 drama. cos i knew i couldn't ask you to stay.

then things changed. and i felt a wisp of regret. but i only had myself to blame. i lost my chance, and it's not coming back.

i miss you.

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